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Excerpt from The Secrets Of Yashire: Emerging From The Shadows

“What is it like, anyway, to be sent by The Spirit of Truth on a mission?” Abiba asked.

“Well, when I first got here I was really confused because I can’t remember who I was before or where I came from. But now I’m just accepting the fact that I’m here to fulfill this mission and I’m not thinking much past that,” Brianna responded.

“You’ll probably get your memory back soon,” Abiba warbled.

“I sure hope so. I’m hoping that completing this journey will bring it back.”

During their conversation, Angelos had wandered off to munch on some grass. He followed at a distance while they talked, wandering in and out of the trees.

The Secrets of Yashire: Emerging From the Shadows

“I would hate to lose my memory,” Abiba stated. “I am so curious. I need to know what is going on at all times. And I would hate the feeling of looking at something and having no idea what it is.”

“That’s the strange thing about it. I know what everything is. I just don’t know who I am or where I came from.”

“Hmmmm…” Abiba was deep in thought. “That is very interesting. I wonder what the reasoning of that might be.”

Just as Brianna opened her mouth to reply, a horrendous thundering roar came towards them from the woods on their left. Moments later, Angelos fled madly out of the underbrush and ran to Brianna, singing frantically and wildly thrusting his tail back and forth. She looked down and spotted some large, round seeds stuck to his tail. She and Abiba both began to laugh hysterically as she bent down to pick them out of Angelos’ fur.

“You need to be more careful, Angelos! These things are really sticky!”

He sang in agreement, gratefully waiting for Brianna to pick them all out of his tail.

After she had pulled out the last seed, Abiba said they were headed to a grassy glen not far ahead. He told her that she would receive her first virtue there.

(My first virtue! I get to use the magic words!)

They meandered through the trees, which got fewer and farther apart the more they walked.

“We’re getting closer,” Abiba affirmed as they continued weaving in and out of the trees. “It’s not much farther ahead.”

The landscape seemed to open up and expand as they pushed forward. The area where the glen lay was quite large and only dotted with a few trees.

As they walked into the open area, moonlight fell around them like a soft blanket.

“This place is called the Whispering Meadows. It is a magical land,” Abiba chirped, gesturing with one of his wings.

“I can’t wait to see this! This is going to be awesome! I get to use the magic words!” Brianna said excitedly.

Brianna walked further into the field of moonlit grass.

“Say the magic words,” Abiba persuaded.

Brianna cleared her throat……………………..

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If you’re curious about what happened, check out The Secrets Of Yashire: Emerging From The Shadows on Amazon! You will explore a whole new world with Brianna! Blessings!

She Was In Prison

She lived in a beautiful house with her husband and family. Every day, she kept her house clean and cooked delicious meals. She baked bread and cookies. The smells wafted through her home, making it appear to be a happily lived in sanctuary.

She kissed her children often and told them she loved them. She hugged them and saw them off to school, waving as the bus pulled away from the driveway. Then she went back inside when she was alone and crumpled to the floor. She was in prison.

She felt the pain of the past, the let downs of her life. Her failures, her lost dreams, her wishes that seemed to have washed away with the rains of the seasons. Her nerves were frazzled. Her heart ached. She grasped for the knowledge of how to start over, for the energy to become who she seemed to be on the outside to transform her insides. But the knowledge eluded her. She was forever in prison.

Her children came home and gathered around the dinner table. Her husband sat on the couch and ate. She and her children talked. And laughed. They told her tales about their days. She smiled as she listened to them. She really loved them. Their cheerful voices and their exuberance brought life into her barren soul.

She truly cherished the moments she spent with her family. She went through the motions of each day, but at night’s end, as she crawled into bed, she cried. Desperation filled her. Though she lived a life that others wished for, she was in prison.

She was tormented by thoughts of overdosing.  Of slitting her wrists with razors.  She wished for her existence to be over, but she hung on for the love of her children.

Was it fate that kept her alive?  Was it hope in things one day being different?  She wasn’t sure. But she didn’t want to give up and leave a dark legacy for her children.  So she continued on although she was in prison.

How many people live lives of quiet desperation? Lives filled with depression, PTSD, fear, addiction, physical pain and mental torture? There are many. Too many to count. They feel alone. They feel useless. They feel they can barely make it through another day, let alone another minute.

This blog is for those who are suffering. You are not alone. There are many who feel tortured, some of whom you would never guess.  Keep hanging on and searching for the love to heal. Because it is there.  And you can find it.

You don’t have to be in prison.

Brokenness

There is nothing worse than the feeling of a dry, barren soul. A spirit that is broken. Bare and lonely, empty and despised.

When we feel that nothing can help us, that life will never get better, that is when we need refreshing. Many of us feel that we need a vacation, and maybe we do. But a vacation will never permanently rejuvenate us. We feel like a desert; dry and barren. Like a land that needs rain to seep into our pores for weeks on end. But there is no rain.

Nature can refresh. So can loved ones. But the biggest refresher is God. Only He can fill the dry, empty cracks inside of us. We can seek to find relief anywhere else and it will never fully recharge us.

The Tears Of The Broken by Diamante Lavendar

So the question is: where can we find God? The answer: in your heart. He’s not in a building. He’s not in any specific place. He’s everywhere around….in the trees, in the breeze, on the face of the person who smiles at you at the grocery store. He’s in the helpfulness of the man who holds the door open for you and in the woman who tells you she loves your hair. He’s everywhere. His essence can’t be held by any specific thing for He’s omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent. That’s the beauty of God. He’s everywhere all the time. He even sings to you through music. He tells you He loves you when you feel the peacefulness of an ocean roaring. He fills your heart as you listen to birds chirping happily in the trees. And when you read His word, the Bible, you find out just who He is and what he stands for.

As in any relationship, you must know Him. Just as you build a relationship with your spouse, your children, your friends, you must also build a relationship with Him. The difference is, your relationship with Him will rejuvenate you throughout your entire life. It won’t wax or wane unless you allow it to. It is completely up to you as to how well you get to know Him. And then He will fill your brokenness, your dry places like nothing else and no one else can. When you get to a point in life where nothing can satisfy you, that’s when you will realize the beauty of God. For He can satisfy anyone. Anytime.

I spent many years broken beyond the point of repair. It was extremely difficult. It was excruciating. I didn’t realize He could fill my broken pieces like glue. How I wish I would’ve understood so much sooner what He had to offer. I would’ve been able to mend so much more quickly. But, as roses have thorns, we have our problems. And sometimes those problems are necessary in making us change for the better. It’s painful. That’s why I’m sharing this with you. So you know there is a solution.

Focus on Him. He is the way, the truth and the life. He is the solution. For everything. We just need to trust Him to light the way.  For only He knows how to enlighten our understanding in just the right way to make us take notice.  Only He can fill in the cracks of our desperation and need.  And only He can give us peace to make our despair disappear.  He is the ultimate answer.