Category Archives: Poetry

Never Goodbye

You gave me your heart,
I gave you my soul;
Your love and laughter,
Made me whole;

Nearly nineteen long years,
You graced my life;
Til the reaper came,
With sickle and knife;

Your silence is stunning,
Your absence extreme;
Every second of every day,
Is crushing and mean;

My daughter, my love,
The wind in my sails;
Taken from me abruptly,
Snuck through heaven’s veil;

How am I expected,
To continue living,
When all around me,
Is pain and misgiving?

In still, ebbing moments,
I remember your voice;
Your laugh, your whisper,
In this deep, numbing void;

That has become,
My new sentence to bear;
When all I want,
Is to have you back here;

You were everything precious,
A sweet gift from God;
That was ripped from my grasp,
Buried under the sod;

I love you, I break for you,
You’re the blood in my veins;
I beg for an answer,
To make life seem humane;

But I know oh too well,
The truth of this dark place;
I will miss you until,
We reunite in God’s grace.

Echoes

 

Before you left,
You told me
Everything:
All your pain,
And your regrets.
I found it strange-
The sudden openness
Between us,
But I didn’t consider
The ramifications;
Until I found
Your lifeless body
In your apartment.
Suddenly the world
Came crashing in
As I remembered
Your haunting words.
You knew you’d soon
Be leaving me forever
And I refused
To believe it.
Now I’m sentenced
To the silence
You left behind;
And your words
That once fell
Upon my deaf ears
Will echo in my mind
Until I too
Leave this earth
To search for you
In eternity.

Dedicated to my daughter who passed last November.
I love you, Celby. Please forgive me.

My poem entitled Life, set to music.

I wrote this poem a while ago but recently decided to set it to music.

As is everything I write, this poem has a lot of personal meaning to me.  I hope you enjoy it!

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You Shone Like The Sun On Autumn Leaves

You shone like the sun on autumn leaves,
Their remaining life brief before they fell from the trees;

The sun’s light was strong, the warmth intense,
Just as was your heart; loving, immense;

But the leaves shriveled up and neared their end,
Just as you when you left, my child, my friend;

Your meaning lives on in every new day,
I begged God for time to extend your stay;

It’s a hard lesson to learn that you have no control,
Over life, over love, over a darling child’s soul;

All we can do is sift through the hours,
And beg for provision, mercy and power,

To experience life’s sentence of lessons and fate,
Before we, too, find ourselves in heaven’s estate.

Love us and guide us from your ethereal view,                                                                                 Until one day we are reunited with you.

-Diamante Lavendar

Ominous Clouds

Ominous clouds on a haunted street,
Passers by shuffling quickened feet;
Ghosts lurk behind windows, and half open doors;
Watching, waiting, squeaking furniture and floors;
Their time has stopped, clocks are meaningless pieces;
Of a life they once knew, before meeting the reaper;
Confused and rattled, they are bound to cold earth;
No longer feeling happiness, meaning or worth.

-Diamante Lavendar

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Peach Blossoms

The peach blossoms reach
And grasp for the sky,
Watching graceful birds
And insects fly by;

They drink in the essence,
Of the winds’ lusty breeze,
And the sweet scented flowers,
Growing nearby their trees.

They watch and marvel,
At the vibrant colors,
Of the grass, the skies,
Flowering sisters and brothers;

All in due season,
All in due time,
There is no worry or pressure,
In nature’s rhythm and rhyme.

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Increase Love’s True Grit

Be the best you can be;
It’s all you can do;
Put yourself in ,
Another one’s shoes.

Re step your reasons,
Your where and your why;
Only then will you begin to
Grow wings and fly;

Pain is a process,
Letdown a game,
For inside each one of us,
We’re all made the same.

Once we embrace this,
And dance through our trials,
Life will have meaning,
We’ll endure it with smiles.

Heartbreak is a part of
This challenge and course,
If we clear all our hurdles,
We’ll break every curse.

So next time a crisis,
Of loss and grief hit,
Don’t believe the illusion,
Increase love’s true grit.

Dedicated to my daughter Celby.  May we live by her example of love and light.

 

Celby

The pain is so deep-
Every time I have a memory,
Every time I hear a song you loved,
Every perfect picture waiting to be taken,
Causes bitter tears of grief to awaken
My broken heart again.

Everywhere I go-
Everyone I meet, people who I talk to,
Remind me of you and your beauty;
I miss your caring heart, your giving aura of love;
You were so much more than the average person
Could have ever hoped to be.

My soulmate-
We dreamed together, had grand plans,
We laughed about silly things,
Fought about even sillier things,
Then hugged and reconciled,
Knowing our love was one quite rare.

My daughter, my baby-
My best friend;
I raised you to be loving, understanding,
A light in the darkness.
How could God snuff out
Someone so incredibly beautiful at such a tender age?

How could He allow it-
When your presence changed lives
And your perspective made everything better?
Your glow could be felt by everyone who knew you;
You made things make sense, you brought life into situations;
You were a constant help to those in need.

I miss you, Celby. I always will-
Until God has me take my last breath on this earth,
Nothing will ever be the same again.
The beauty you left behind is agonizing,
The purpose you gave us torturous
Because you were ripped from us without even so much

As an explanation.

Now Is All We Have

I AM the Method,
I AM the Key,
I AM the Answer,
Please reference Me.

I AM the Creator,
I AM the King,
I am the Light,
In whom creation sings.

When you’re in doubt,
You know you will fall;
Cry out to Me,
The Intention of all.

I AM your Redeemer,
Of first and of last,
I AM the Gatekeeper,
Of all time that does pass.

You Are My Bridge

 

You are my bridge. My bridge to love and light.

You are my hope. The hope of my destiny.

You are my dream. The dream of success which you carried for me.

You are my safety. The safety of love and acceptance you gave me.

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Remember me. As your mother, the one who cherished you.

Remember me. As your friend who valued your opinion.

Remember me. The broken one who needed your tenderness.

Remember me. The vessel you poured your light into.

 

I miss you. The days of laughter and content.

I adore you. Your sparks of humor and helpfulness.

I remember you. My little angel with a bright future.

I hold tight to you. Your memory of rainbows and sunbeams.

 

I admire you. You lived with a rare condition.

You have great strength. Despite the bullies and false friends.

Though you were different. You were a shining example.

You are an original. Truly one among millions.

 

Your favorite color. Pink like the passionate sunrise.

Your shining eyes. Deep blue like God’s heavens.

Your wavy hair. Red, brown, blonde and gold; a mane of beauty.

Your pouting lower lip. The most beautiful smile of caring.

 

Your creative tendencies. To make art and take pictures.

Your quirky side. To tie tight knots and laugh heartily.

Your passion. To love life despite letdowns.

Your imagination. To know angels and possibilities.

 

You are beautiful. Though you didn’t believe it.

You are precious. Though you couldn’t see it.

You are worthy. Though you didn’t realize it.

You are amazing. Though you felt ordinary.

 

Let me see you. When my heart aches to be with you.

Hold me close. In the times that I’m hurting.

Give me love. Throw your soft arms around me.

Kiss my cheek. So I know you are near me.

 

You are perfect. Fun sized and abundant.

You are tender. Hugging me with your mercy.

You are gentle. Forgiving and helpful.

You are gorgeous. My baby, my angel incarnate.

 

God Bless you Celby. I’ll write for you for the rest of my life. I can’t wait to run into your arms the moment I take my last breath here on earth. Wait for me. Meet me and bring me home.