The truth of your love you left behind, A treasure, a gift that you hoped I'd soon find; You helped me to learn and wished that I'd grow, I never imagined I'd be missing you so; Life seemed so harsh many years ago, Now darker than I ever wanted to know; I'm not sure how to handle this agony and pain, As I look at your pictures again and again; A mother's love is not taken for granted, For children she prayed for and desperately wanted; I'm not sure how I can go on living, But I know you'd tell me to keep on trying. I think of heaven and I hear your voice, In my heart and my head where you left a deep void; I wonder if maybe I'm losing my mind, Because I'm wishing so hard you hadn't left me behind; Celby, Jazzy, my beautiful girls, My love, my passion, my yearning, my world; Please tell me you're still here, right beside me, And ask God to wrap me in his presence and hide me; I beg Him some day to heal these misgivings, So I know I can live in a state of forgiveness.
I am lost without you. Love Mommy.